Monday, December 9, 2024

Towards 2 Rivers


 Daniel Boone National Forest, Kentucky, 2020

I woke to fog laying heavy over Laurel Lake. Its density obscured the shoreline from view, as if beneath the veil the lake could stretch on forever. I had come to the bank to gather water, but on this dawn the lake gave me much more. Bands of color stretched across the horizon, infusing the mist with a pink hue. It was early April, most of the canopy had yet to leaf out, and the morning chilled my fingers as I sat on a log and made breakfast. I had run out of stove fuel the night before and was mixing cold water with my instant oats. Tonight I was bound for a creek named Dog Slaughter.

I broke down camp. Last night I’d set up on a finger of earth pointed into the lake along the Sheltowee Trace. Three days and thirty-three miles before, my roommate dropped me off at Camp Wildcat Memorial Battlefield, and I’d bumbled forth, crossing I-75, past old strip mines and storied country churches and quizzically-cut rock faces guarding hushed, wet ravines. I continued my walk, following the south edge of Laurel Lake as the morning fog faded into perfect blue. By the time I crossed the dam, entering Whitley County, I was sweating under the rising sun. I saw the last of the blemishless reflection of cloudless sky in the lake and was glad for another push into dense woods, following a path towards two rivers. 

The past few days had laid out a pattern of descent into cliff-lined valleys, a stream at the nadir, then a climb back out to pavement. Once again I was savoring the changes of a descent, the landscape growing more lush as the din of moving water came gradually into earshot. Fallen leaves crunched underfoot with every step. The trail wound down towards the shade of towering rock houses, trees alongside them growing straight and tall in pursuit of sunlight. The sun pulsed through evergreen needles and still-naked branches on its way down to the forest floor. I met with Whitman Branch, a stream flowing into Laurel River. The valley widened out at the mouth of Laurel River. There at a boat ramp I met with the Cumberland and began my day’s crawl along its banks. 

A couple miles after joining the Cumberland River I crossed paths with two hikers headed back where I’d come from. They warned me about the spring time floodwaters pushing up against the cliffs on the shore. One of the gentlemen pulled out his phone and showed me a picture of where they decided to turn around–the trail was inundated with murky water right up against a bluff, with no way to get above and around. I considered the high water route, but that would have required some backtracking. They left me with good-luck wishes and I pressed on towards whatever the swollen river had to offer me. 

My pace slowed as I periodically climbed up thorny, rocky slopes to avoid the flooded trail. Stately sycamores and budding silver maples submerged in the river kept watch as I took my boots off to wade through clouded water. It was chilly, lapping against my thighs. At one point I decided to try and maneuver above a rock wall instead of through the water beneath it. Behind the rock I found a tight gap, which I squeezed through with diligent footwork after separating from my backpack. I emerged on the other end covered in sand, and ambled back down to the shore. Along the Cumberland, cliffs hosted seasonal displays of falling water, scintillating in a clear spring afternoon.

I made it to Bark Camp Creek. The blessing of the season was also its treachery. The spring’s heavy rains added both drama and danger to every creek and waterfall. My guidebook had described this creek crossing as a “challenging boulder-hop.” I stood on one end sizing up the situation, adrenaline welling up in my chest, deciding that “harrowing” or “ass-clenching” were more apt descriptors for the task at hand. White water rushed between huge boulders speckled with lichen and tinged with algae. A derelict, washed out bridge stood to my left. The structure loomed mockingly as I tried to identify the safest passage over the rocks. 

I took a deep breath and crawled atop the first boulder in the creek. The next boulder stood closer to the water’s surface, and the only path forward I could see for myself was down. I tried to lower myself into the space between two faces of rock, leaping towards the next boulder. My footwork was unsure and I snagged my backpack–off snapped the chest strap holding my guidebook and bear spray. Thankfully, these landed on the dry surface of the boulder I was trying to get to. By the grace of my mother’s remote prayers and teenage aplomb I made it over the creek. Safe on dirt trail again, I gazed upstream at a set of cascades, azure pools stacked beneath short, churning falls. A creek valley framed by pines and early spring hardwood, bereft of color. Branches bearing hopeful buds splayed out and grasped handfuls of blue sky. I imagined the seasons falling into step and what that meant for the cascades. The power I saw that afternoon would thin out beneath a green canopy by midsummer. Come autumn and the serene pools would be choked with senesced leaves, later still the cascades might quiet to a whisper, immured in winter ice. 

Patterns repeated. The trail dipped beneath a rock shelter, a stream pattered off its roof onto a pebbly low spot, draining eventually to the river. More creeks to cross, flowing into the Cumberland, though none as wild as Bark Camp. By six I had made it to Dog Slaughter Creek, set in a little valley green with moss and laurel.

After a cold dinner of tuna in a bag, I climbed up onto a big boulder set into the creek. Lichen of different creeds found their homes on the gray rock. Black lichen flaked up and bubbled like blisters, and green lichen splayed out like a Mandelbrot set. How long had this ancient rock stood sentry in this chilly cove? Up top I could still warm myself with the slowly lowering sun. I looked down at the cascades in the creek, rushing towards the Cumberland. Where the two courses met, frenetic blue contrasted with a calmer, stiller green. The afternoon was warm. I felt the woods themselves embracing me as a dying sun kissed the canopy of the Daniel Boone National Forest. I felt small upon the rock and small in the scale of rock-time. Each boulder would eventually weather to sand and blanket the belly of the Cumberland.

The back of a church in a rural neighborhood, the solitude of deep Laurel county woods, the sublimity of a lake guarded by springtime hills, and now a rhododendron grove by the mighty Cumberland River. In these lonely places I was blessed to take shelter over four nights along the Sheltowee Trace. In my life I occupied then a liminal space. Having withdrawn from my first attempt at college, my days were spent in a fast-food drive through, waiting to figure out what my existence was worth. My heart snagged on a yearning to see what more there was in the world, so I’d set out alone with a borrowed pack and a pair of boots to hike Kentucky’s backwoods. Never in my eighteen years had I experienced such freedom. 


Wallowa-Whitman National Forest, Oregon, 2023

I never did hike the Sheltowee Trace all the way through. I made it 68 miles that April, bailing out before the trail entered the Big South Fork. But I was hooked on the song of the backcountry, even before I knew the names of the birds, flowers, and trees who composed the score. At some point in the year after my inaugural backpacking trip I learned that people were getting paid to live in tents and spend their days in national forests, and thus my time with the conservation corps began. I first worked in southern California in the spring of 2022, witnessing for the first time in my life desert sunsets and sunrises, skies vast and dense with stars unbound from the cloak of any tree. Then a backcountry trail crew in the Sierra Nevadas, repairing parts of the Pacific Crest Trail, and a stint in prescribed fire in the Southeast. 

Last year I wanted another sagebrush summer sleeping beneath the stars, but I wanted to make more than the $250 a week AmeriCorps generously bestows onto its crew members. So following in the footsteps of my first crew lead, Taylor, I flew out to Idaho to lead a conservation crew for Northwest Youth Corps. This was how I found myself hauling a behemoth pack full of a week’s worth of tools, gear, and food into the North Fork John Day Wilderness of the Wallowa-Whitman National Forest. We were tasked with maintaining the Elkhorn Crest Trail, which ran the knife’s edge of a ridge in Oregon’s Blue Mountains, a range where so many Oregon Trail emigrants perished in their 19th-century bid for a better life. These mountains were home to dazzling summer wildflowers, bloodthirsty hordes of ticks and mosquitoes, and bands of mountain goats fiending for human sweat. The trail was exposed on either side to sweeping views of cool-toned slopes stacked upon one another, with alpine lakes hidden amongst the trees. With groans of relief we set down our packs and established our base camp at Dutch Flat Lake, where we ate dinner around a smoldering fire and delighted in watching mosquitos incinerate themselves in the flames. Once evening chores were done I laid back in my hammock and listened to the peepers cry out to the dark. 

One day in July, halfway through the hitch, I saw rain coming down over the hills in the distance. The conceit in me thought the clouds wouldn’t make it to our ridge. But the undeniable signs of a storm appeared as I bent over some tread: eerie wind and foreboding gloom. I gathered up the crew and we crouched beneath some low-growing spruce as the storm came. Rain turned to hail, thunder cracked and echoed between the mountains. We waited among the scrubby trees which offered only partial protection. I prayed the crosscut saw would stay dry. In half an hour the precipitation dissipated. The pebbly earth was dusted white with little hail balls.  

Eventually, everything dries. I unfurled from my cowering stance, chilled to the bone, work pants and leather gloves soaked. I threw on my wet pack, took up my tools with rain-wrinkled fingers, and went forth on the ridge where sunlight shone once more, promising an end to this discomfort. Sunshine broke through parting clouds, illuminating valleys full of scree and pine. Off the side of the trail brilliant wildflowers like silky phacelia and penstemon bloomed out of thin soil. They glimmered with remnant raindrops, content to grow on an arid, exposed alpine ridge. 

Three years after I first began backpacking, I could finally articulate what this way of life meant to me. In the Blue Mountains I realized that what I love about living outside is forgetting what I look like. In the backcountry my identity breaks down until I am only a vessel with strong legs that carries a backpack, saw, and pulaski. I am reminded of my visible form only in subtle ways. I suspect that I am brown because my skin does not burn or blister in the alpine sun. I think I must be small because I prefer to crawl beneath blown-down trees that my crewmates straddle and hop over. I am reminded of my womb each month when the moon is two nights from full. Blood leaves me then. Other than that, I am only what I can sense. I am the eyes that love the chipmunks, elk and mountain goats. I am the skin that sweats then rejoices with a merciful breeze, the eardrums which hear the quips of the osprey and nutcracker. The dry, cracked hands which trace the concentric, peeling hull of a whitebark pine. My being in the woods is not measured by mirrors, or how others treat me, but by the throbbing in the callused ball of my foot and the itch of a pinprick wound where a lone-star tick drew my blood. 

In this stripped-down existence my emotions are shaped by the elements. I am exasperated when it rains and we have to huddle beneath a tarp to cook dinner. Jubilant when the sun shines and a gentle breeze ruffles the lupines flanking the trail. Relieved when a warm campfire promises protection from the evening chill, and dry socks. An existence pared down to this level holds the space necessary to develop kinship with each fellow form of life. My humanity is no more a marvel of evolution than the mechanisms which allow a mountain goat to scale sheer granite slopes, or the characteristics that grant scrappy flowers a hold on life among the talus. Wildlife teaches me how to be patient, to be graceful, to persevere. I have sat upon the edges of lakes in wildernesses and watched half moons reflected in their surfaces, feeling accepted into the family of life on this earth. From this kinship grows my commitment to conservation. I bear a responsibility to steward the woods that are home to those who have taught me so much.




Sunday, December 8, 2024

March 13th to April 13th, 2023: Alabama, North Carolina and Tennessee

One month of southern spring

March 13th, 2023

Conecuh National Forest, Southern Alabama


So quiet here. Windrush and scattered voices from other campers carry. The moon is waning. This morning just as we passed the stateline that gradient of loving color came down for us, then the golden morning light. Tonight I’m a secret beneath the arms of an old water oak rooted deeply into a pond’s bank in southern Alabama. We got to Open Pond Campground, our home for a week of prescribed burning in the Conecuh National Forest, at about 3. I wandered from our campsite onto a wooden boardwalk jutting into the pond. Little waves pulsed and reflected the blue sky. The sky turned its lovely colors, mirrored movement from the morning, as I stirred a pot of lentil soup. 


The next morning I am hung up on the half moon fading, then golden light hit the longleaf pines. I had never seen anything like it–open woodland dominated by towering pines, arms held out straight bouquets of long needles. 

That first work day we burned. I dripped diesel onto a fluffed clump of long brown needles; a clear-winged dragonfly landed next to the flames. A dogwood stood among the pines, dressed up in white-petaled flowers, crying out springtime, springtime again.



Squelchy mud, tufts of grass scorching. I schlep along a bulldozer line and see longleaf, endlessly patterned upon the flat horizon. In a wet thickety grove, tall cane folds down upon itself, popping and crackling as it burns into a confetti of white ash. Like glass shards, scattered over scalded earth. The woods warming towards an equinox offered up flowers i’d never seen back home–white-pink with long, droopy stamens, some sort of buttercup, another marvel of little pink buds…and copses of dogwood. Beautyberry and florida anise in the bog.


On the fourth day, I think I saw a red cockaded woodpecker flying among the pines, through the smoke clearing steadily from a smoldering blanket of needles and cones. I’m no ornithologist and at this point not even a birdwatcher. But it was about the right size, right pattern. And selfishly I’d like to believe that my eyes met the benefactor of our burn.


Rural Alabama–maples budding in front yards guarded by yawpping mutts and horses and little baby cows. I emptied my drip torch and my chest was gripped by the hopefulness of life to be leafed out.


8:18 AM sunrays streaming through the longleaf pines. I ate a whole can of beans for breakfast, cold. 


It was my coworker Greta’s 24th birthday. 


My tent smells like feet and piss.


March 19th


A sugar maple forked, then knit back together, then split apart again. Devil’s urns tucked into the sides of a rotting log.


March 23rd

Sumter National Forest, Upstate South Carolina


The day of the spring equinox I woke up in my tent in Tuskegee National Forest wearing 6 layers to ward off the cold. Then we burned alongside the comedically lax staff of the United State’s youngest & smallest national forest.


Fleshy ganoderma protrudes from the mossy boles of old trees. Karsen poked at them along our rainy Foothills Trail trek. I’m backpacking with my coworker past the creeks and falls and ephemerals of upstate south Carolina. Mountainside patches of rhododendron growing prolific and wriggly, arms rising up from sloped earth, holding out long deep-green leaves, which they retain for 2 to 3 years.


We make it to Spoonauger falls, where Karsen and I laze upon a good nap rock. She’s wearing her Vermont Land Trust ballcap backwards, as the water falls in many tiers down a rock wall covered in lush wet moss. A salamander, small, spotted juvenile, at home in a sandy rocky little pool. I look away from the falls, across the Chattooga river, at Georgia’s blue mountains standing beyond and above greening hills.


The Foothills trail, which I completed in 3 sections across spring of ‘23.
The Oconee Bell, a rare wildflower found in the river gorges of Georgia & the Carolinas.

March 24th


I’m in the Pisgah National Forest watching two experienced trail crew sawyers cut up a huge silver maple blocking the treadway. The bottom half still stands with its uneven concentric patterns and splintery bark. Rich humus from the rotted belly of an old maple.


April 1

Pisgah National Forest, Western North Carolina


Broad afternoon. I packed a bag with water, my sketchbook, and some pens, and started on the logging road to get up to Rich Mountain. The trail curled up to the knobtop; a rutted climb. Blue ridge all around, black cherry, tinderhoof growing from a black locust snag. The sunlight was being so sweet. White pine, eastern hemlock. Hills full of dying hemlock–will my children know how hemlocks translate a sunny afternoon, how the spring gusts ply the tree to sway, so the light scatters and gleams and sparkles as it catches on the trembling needles? How in winter, when icicles hang still off the roofs of Kentucky rockshelters, hemlocks capture the energy of the sun, coves glimmer and hold out promises to young women, that life is soon to unfurl, if she would just have some faith and patience. 



I sat up there, lost in memory and divination. I realized I was late for dinner then ran back down to the valley. God. I thought about God on the way down. The sunlight’s grasp on the mountains slackened as I followed the old roads down to the elevation where streams babble, and rhododendron forms a tunnel ‘round the trail. I looked up and saw the sky, and a band of blue mountains, the gold of evening over a canopy still bare, still all-naked buds. Dark bodies of timber in the valley.


I drive back to Kentucky to hear Robin Wall Kimmerer speak at UK and Transylvania. She proposes: if plants are teachers, how can we be better students: PAY ATTENTION!


What do we learn when we remember? Last fall, running through the arboretum to find the fruit-laden persimmon trees. My hands were sticky with fruit juice. A fruit tree, hope hanging. You don’t grow a seed without hope. 


Back down through that rhododendron tunnel, into time, into future, into kinship.


Blue hole, Sumter NF

April 12th

Cherokee National Forest


A red sun through smoky skies. Dogwood hangs over the gravel, as maple samaras whirl through the air, the way moths trying to mate flit around each other. They perish, shortly–I found one severed luna moth wing in the grass where I sleep, after having seen an adult a couple nights ago with Karsen, waiting on the pavement for a mate–or maybe having already filled its biological purpose, waiting around to die. I spy buckeyes on the riverbank, That’s patchy, white-gray bark, and palmate leaves hanging down loosely from the branches Each leaf’s margin bears an edge of fine teeth when you get a close look. 


Actias luna

Firefighters and fire practitioners laughing loud before a morning briefing. Foamflower and pink buds of laurel! A sprig of yellowroot, flowers like stars strung on a line, caught in my helmet from a bushwhack. Now standing by a burning hillslope across the road from the Tellico River. Behind me, three sycamore, all wearing their small new green leaves. It’s past 7 and I just pissed under a bridge like some kind of troll. Birds sing their eveningsong, magenta dusk rises over the ridge. 


Burning into the night

Today we’re burning along the cherohala skyway. Someone told me that rich people fly their cars down here to whip them down and around these mountains, and I do spot some slick-looking rides on the road in spite of the billowing smoke. On a berm by the road squirrel corn grows up from the leaf litter. Karsen cracked open an acorn and found a grub. Like an arthropod kinder surprise. I dragged fire underneath a towering concrete bridge, valley looking out at the hills of Cherokee National Forest. 


April 13th


I woke up this morning with my gears stuck on the words “sprawling sycamore”.








Friday, January 19, 2024

October ‘23: A Lil Falltime Frolick on Pine Mountain

October 21-23rd, 2023 

    This past fall break I headed down to Pine Mountain to backpack the Birch Knob Section of the PMT. I’m glad I finally got the chance to hike this backbone along a critical ribbon of conserved forest. The Pine Mountain Trail is intended to be one leg of the Great Eastern Trail, a work-in-progress which will eventually parallel the AT and run from Alabama to New York. Pine Mountain, according to the Kentucky Natural Lands Trust, is one of the world’s most biodiverse temperate zone forests. 

Day 1 - Elkhorn City Trailhead to just past Skeet Rock Knob 


    I was supposed to do this hike with Elijah but he got sick the week preceding. He still agreed to ferry me to and from the trailheads (what an angel he is). We got to Elkhorn City, KY at nearly 1 on a breezy and overcast day. The road to the trailhead was deeply rutted with muddy water collected upon the surface, but my 2wd CRV made it just fine. 
    My greatest apprehension about the trail was the water situation. I was comforted that it’d rained a lot in the week before I started walking, but at least in Central KY it’d been dry for months. Day 1, walking 9ish miles to Skeet Rock Knob, the best source I could find was a leaf-covered puddle on a rocky ridge. It was brown-tinged but clear enough. I <3 chlorine tablets. At some point in the day I passed “goldfish pond” which is listed as an official source in my guide but looked far less palatable.

My guy!!! A northern walkingstick.

    The push up to pine mountain from Elkhorn City was rocky and steep ATV trails through Breaks Interstate Park, mostly clear and wide with the cover of some rhododendron tunnels. The first big overlook was a look at the town I’d passed through to get to the trailhead. The trail thinned out to single track at some points. A leaf bug leapt across the trail and the overhanging arm of a shrubby witch-hazel held out before me a still and silent walkingstick. I made dinner at a rock outcrop covered in steadfast lichen with a sweet view of changing leaves in the valley I had just climbed out of. Mac n cheese below a swirling cloud-quilt. 

Walking upon a spine of exposed lichencovered rock

Golden hour—delectable!

    After dinner I hiked on a bit more and found a little hammock spot in a patch of woods between a rock outcrop and a buzzing powerline clearing. As I was setting up for the night I was startled by a scurrying of something dark-colored and mammalian in the brush. Out of the undergrowth appeared a cadre of black little hound dogs, at least 4 of them, but no humans in sight. They barked at me a little then went away, down the mountain or elsewhere I’ll never know.  
    I was cozy in my little sack and I remember the wind roaring over the ridge, swallowing all other sound. Gusts ruffled the dying leaves and pulled at the tall trunks so the moonlight pulsed through the trees before it found me. 

Day 2 - Powerline overlook near Skeet Rock Knob to Cantrell Gap

    The day’s highlight was getting Birch Knob overlook to myself for about an hour, and then a bear I saw on an unsuccessful attempt to find Jenny Falls. It was cloudy all day and if I sat for a break for too long I got all frosty and shivery.

    Hiking in the morning I passed some historical markers pointing out old homesites, explaining the significance of gaps the trail traveled through. The trail changes from one track to join old wagon roadbeds at some points. With the terrain and everything grown up it’s hard to imagine people making a living in this landscape. One sign after Blowing Rock Gap pointed out the murder site of Henry Mullins. It read:

    “One day while Pridemore Fleming was sheriff of Dickenson County, he and some others made a raid in the vicinity of Blowing Rock Gap. They found some moonshine near George Dutton’s on Cane Creek, and proceeded to drink a lot of it. While in this condition they approached the home of Henry Mullins. They found a jar of moonshine just on the Virginia side, and accosted Henry about it. He denied any knowledge of it being on his place, and one of the posse, Seth Hill, shot him dead. Since the shooting happened in Kentucky the trial for this murder was held at Pikeville. Hill was given a small fine.”

    Wild. What the fuck Seth??

“Old home site—this site is the location of an old farm belonging to an early settler.”
“Henry and Arminie Mullins Homesite”
Birch Knob Shelter

    I wandered on wondering what widowed life was like for Arminie Mullins, alone on the mountain, husband taken by a drunkard’s gun. I got to the turn off for Jenny Falls, marked with a blue blaze as a water source. In pursuit of a scenic sidequest and some quenchment I went down the hill, a side trail traveling through a rhodo-choked drainage. I got this sense that if I were a bear… this would be a fine place to be. And sure enough, right ahead of me on the trail, a flash of furry black behind, and then a split second decision to save Jenny Falls for another day. I absconded back up the hill to the main trail. Soon after, a sweet shelter, and then the parking lot for Birch Knob Observation Tower.

Looking over into VA (i think)
Looking over into KY

  There was a cistern that made an excellent water source along the trail between Birch Knob Shelter and the observation deck parking lot. I filled up, grateful after my aborted water mission, then scurried up the metal steps see the overlook. I stayed a while to take in Pine Mountain in autumn sublimity, stretching on towards Whitesburg and beyond. A truly baller vista that I returned to during Thanksgiving Break to savor a sunset at. 

    The trail continues south, following a gravel road. Along the road I memorial site of a plane crash with another good overlook of hills and farm land. I remember a sign for an official campsite off to the left of the road, which I didn’t investigate. Soon I turned right, back up onto single track trail shaded in by trees of autumn struggling to hold on to their leaves.


A warning about the trail being “incomplete and difficult to traverse” after I left the gravel road leading away from Birch Knob Tower

  I was hiking with some guidance from Valerie Askren’s Backpacking Kentucky book, which showed campsites that were nowhere to be found, i guess due to trail reroutes over the years. There was supposed to be a campsite at Cantrell Gap, but I saw nothing indicative of a good place to sleep. I hiked on just a bit and found a flat spot on a ridge overlooking the KY side to set up for the night on. My view there was obscured but I still enjoyed what I could see of the sunset, vibrant colors upon the hills beyond the trees. Down in Kentucky I saw dots of light coming from people’s homes, and the shouts and barks and engines of civilization which travel up to the ridge to meld with the mountain breeze. Again, moonlight coming to me, strong through the trunks and branches. What does a bobcat make of moonlight? What does it think when clouds shroud it out?

Day 3 - Cantrell Gap to Jenkins, KY

   The last day of every backpacking trip is always bittersweet. I woke to blue beyond the treetops. I had all day to make the 10.5 miles to pound gap, and was full of a sense of excitement to see my love again and a sadness that my trip was coming to an end. The first part of the day followed wide ATV trails, which made for rocky, steep walking in some spots and slick n’ muddy potholed sliding in others. I was running out of water in the morning and deciding whether or not to collect some from one of the gargantuan oily ATV puddles when I saw a paw paw patch, and then a very shallow stream crossing the trail which I collected from using the broken-off cap of my Nalgene. 

Some sort of old foundation I passed early in the day.

Great Eastern Trail.

PMT marker on a huge tree fallen across the trail.

        
This final day was the most bushwhacky of the section. Just before “the doubles” for a spell there are blazes upon trees to mark a path, but no trail. It switches between dubious one-track/nonexistent to 4X4 road. There’s some neighboring private land as well; I remember passing through a big sunny field with a little hunter’s treehouse at the edge. I’m not sure if that was part of the trail. There is nothing quite like the joy of seeing a blaze for the first time after a good while of befuddlement. If all fails, just follow along the spine of the mountain.

Some cliffs I saw before I got lost.

          Despite the mild confusion of a trail-in-progress (I would love to work on the PMT one day) this final day was so wonderful—the sunshine & rock walls rising from the earth & endless views of the hills beyond. And the serenity of a lonely trail in autumn! This entire section I saw no other hikers—only a family out on their ATVs on day 1, and people going up to the observation deck on day 2.

Tucker Gap! The first trail blaze I saw after some bewilderment

    Just before the quarry overlook (view was choked out by invasive autumn olive) I found the best water source of the day, a wide stream that the trail crossed. 


    The end of the section came up quicker than I thought. The last hard push of the day was through a steep rhododendron tunnel, like going up a staircase past little caves carved into the rock. I emerged at the final overlook of the section. After raven’s nest overlook there was another little stretch of upland woods and then I found myself signing the hiker notebook left by the Pine Mountain Trail Conference. Then I emerged from the woods by a big noisy cell tower. 

    A long, gravel drive took me down off the mountain to US-23. I took my time, savoring these last views of the mountains beyond the power lines, part of me wishing my path was to push on, cross the pavement, and get back into the woods onto the next section before the sun came down. But the highlands & little shepherd sections I’ll save for later, maybe next spring, to see Pine Mountain in the throes of another season. For now I’ll daydream of rhodo tunnels and rugged rock jutting out of the earth, and stickbugs & gazing out at slopes and valleys graced with hues of red and orange and gold.

Last miles of the trail, headed down to Jenkins.

None of the listed campsites from Cantrell Gap to 4 Springs seemed to exist anymore. 
Thanks 4 reading :)




Monday, October 30, 2023

Blackmare Lake

August 6, 2023

Mariposa lillies, Payette NF

This summer rolled into August and we found ourselves near Cascade, Idaho preparing for our last hitch together. At the behest of Idaho Fish & Wildlife the five of us would head into the Payette National Forest for 9 days. Thankfully they outfitted us with pack mules. Had we carried 8 nights worth of food and tools out upon our backs they’d have found my body among the tobacco brush and huckleberry bushes.

My 22nd birthday came the Sunday right before we were slated to hike out. Three of us woke early at Warm Lake and went over to Trail Creek Hot Springs for a morning soak. There was a big rectangle pool with incredibly hot water, and a fancy little spigot you could turn to regulate the flow of cool creek water coming into the pool. But even with the creek water flowing in at full throttle the heat was something to get used to, and I’d periodically have to hop out of the hot pool to dredge myself in frigid creek flow. I wondered who it was that dragged all the pipes and cement and mortar down this steep hill to spruce up the hot spring. 

The rest of the day was spent gathering supplies for the hitch, prowling Cascade’s grocery store for bear creek soup packets and laying out our gear for Monday. The crew pulled out some cannolis for me—one of my favorite little treats. I’m sure they bought them in Boise and where they hid them in the truck for a day I’ll never know. But they were delicious, and I settled into my tent late once I was sure we were prepared for the extended workweek, reading the little birthday card they gave me.

Goose creek falls, Payette NF


Aug 7

The next day dawned. The mule packers got to work weighing and balancing and loading our gear onto the animals. Our project partner, Michael, gave us some apple slices to ply the mules and horses with. I hiked slow, trailing behind the rest of the crew as usual. A cool morning gave way to a hot midday upland hike, and when we got to our overgrown camp, six miles in from the trailhead, we spent hours hacking away and clearing out spaces to lay our tents and tarps out. Pushing back the overgrowth along the trail leading up to camp and the trail from camp to Blackmare Lake would be our mission for the duration of the hitch. 

Then the storm came, all six of us huddled beneath the kitchen tarp to escape the deluge. With luck on our side and Lily's tenacity we got a fire going after dinner when the rain died down, which helped dry and warm us. Looking back on my journal I seemed to be in a pretty low mood by the end of the night, being cold and wet from walking through waist-high brush to get a bucketful of water to put out the fire.

Aug 8

In my hammock around 10 at night I remembered two currant fruits hanging from a bush, dark and shiny like a cow's eyes. Which brought me back to our previous project overlooking Hell's Canyon in the Payette NF, where I saw elk along the trail. That was the week before, and today we scratched out a different trail. I was on my knees, smelling the sweet scent of earthchunk i'd pried up with my hoe. Beautiful soil layers, laced with some sort of yellow fungal life.

I saw some beautiful mushrooms, one with a little green round leaf embedded in its smooth cap, and the veinskeleton of a decaying lead stuck to its neck. I swear I saw beneath the cap little moss fingers growing out of the flesh. I peeled up patches of moss from boulders along the trail--beneath the electric soft-green carpet is attached a thin layer of new dirt--made of fir needles, and a spruce cone stitched up in this bryophyte blanket. The complete confusion of a forest barely disturbed.

Painted lady landed in an alpine meadow.

Aug 9

Elijah is at the beach at Bald Head, North Carolina, where the sea turtles have left their eggs upon the sand. Today I am lopping swampy trail, a delight of life. Pull back & look close, kneel upon the squishy earth--see stalks of moss, little translucent electric petals shining with moisture. I ran a saw for the first time in over a month. Downed wood abounds, along with patches of huckleberries for us to pick through.

pink clouds beyond the campfire, dead mouse upon a big ole rotting tree. That chunk I cut out took four to push aside--the heart was still solid, throwing sweet smelling ribbons 

rings within, reality that gives you pause. Ate lunch by mycelium, strong web upon deadwood. Peek a distant peak

Aug 10, Thursday

I realized that pissing outside is a strong motif in my writing. Today I sawed like 14 fallen trees. Some were damn near soil already. Tapped and pried at the sloughing bark with the pulaski to find a grub curled up asleep in a rotting cubbyhole, and frantic hordes of ants and spiders crawling from the wounds I’ve made. Though pulpy, the faces where the saw chewed through still smelled sweetly of conifer.

Aug 11

The crew is gathering around the smoldering fire watching uncut gems which will downloaded onto his phone. I am listening to the lovely rush of south fork Blackmare, which i bathed (half-assedly sat down and splashed myself) myself in after dishes. 

Today I sawed more. Methodically cut out big chunks, wider than I am tall sometimes, pushed ‘em out and watched them roll down and away, landing with a thunk or a splash in a creek. Before lunch, and older solo hiker came through, headed for a bushwhack to the lake. Oh, to have a lake all to yourself. I hope my sawing didn’t break his peace. The peace of lying on your back right on the dirt after lunch, stopping wherever shade is to be found. Of saw maintenance with a mountain view at the close of a day.

My summertime out west is dwindling, but for now life is simple. We gather sticks to stay warm, sweat as we swing tools in the sun, sit upon the rocky shallow bottom of a creek to get clean. The wet start to the hitch was a blessing as now these dry sunny days feel wonderful. I am growing to enjoy ripping the chainsaw which I couldn’t say for myself when I first learned how to use it this past winter. And I am stocking up on my serenity before going home to face the city and school. 

Cockroaches flee from the wood I pry apart. Paintbrushes stand guard along the trail corridor. Patches of moss upon boulders, the way great trees fall then crumble into soil which begets more trees, more life.

Aug 12

Huge dragonfly hanging out over camp, checkin’ out the fire. It’s come around for a couple nights now. Today I sawed some more big logs. One particularly difficult one was rotted bleach-white and suspended across the trail under a lot of downward pressure. Wedges didn’t work, and I was having a hard time just lining up the undercut and holding up the saw to cut from beneath. But eventually it came down.

After lunch in a shady little grove I was trying to head back to this big ole boy I was cutting up, and I got turned around in a meadow, the one choked with paintbrush near the larkspur-full drainage beneath the high rocky peak. I retraced my steps over and over again and finally found the entrance to the woods that I’d come out of.

Now in my hammock listening to Blackmare again. Recent nights it’s been hard to sleep, my mind races, thoughts fluttering towards the future. But today in the meadow: yarrow, paintbrush, aster. Dark beetle upon deadwood. Saw a scrub jay on the way up the mountain in the morning, and at the end of the day going back to camp I saw two in the same spat of trees. What’ve yall been up to all day?

summer’s end comes in the crisp coldnuss of these woods whenever the light leaves.

Tufts of moss which sink in like a cushion where I place my boot. Amber liquid froze up on the bark of trees—I collected pieces to throw in the fire, just to see what they’d do in the flames. The sweet smell of cut timber, and horsemint crushed underfoot. & the satisfaction of forcing movement from a big ole stubborn log—rock n’ roll baby!

I find little tufts of moss everywhere—stuck to my braid, snuck into my underwear, and the inside of my nasty work hoodie. 

Sunday, August 13

Almost done with reading EO Wilson’s Diversity of Life, which I have been working on since March. 

The dusk call of a scrub jay. Or some other screechy bird. And again, Blackmare.

I feel like such a damn far cry from the little lady I was 3 summers ago.

A playlist for backcountry yearning

Lover’s Rock - Sade

Swimming - Maple Glider

Shake This Frost - Tyler Childers

blue valentine - nina

Wildflowers - soccer mommy

Gentle on My Mind - Glen Campbell

I’ll be There in the Morning - Townes Van Zandt

Promises - Cleo Sol

Somehow I haven’t pulled a single tick off of myself out here. Just chipmunks scurrying across the backs of fallen logs and little ants in a frenzy.

I had set out to cut out every log on the path to the lake, but as the day wore on it became clear that there was a lot left to do and I would have to content myself with having done the best I could. Around 4 I decided to just hike on up and check out the lake like our project partner suggested we do. I stashed the saw and chaps and pulaski and headed up the steep trail. Passed some big ole blowdowns, oof—good luck to the next trail crew. Shallow streams with sandy bottoms crossed the trail, which came out of the woods onto ground that was exposed rock. Breathless, I knew I’d made it when I gazed up the hill and saw blue sky flat above the trees. Henry and Lily had passed me on their way back down, and I found Madison and Will up by the blue water.


Up on the flat of the lakeshore there was a bleached ole animal skull and rusted coffee cans with labels from decades past. The ground was worn flat from campers through the years—though the overgrowth we’d been battling for the past week suggested for some reason the visitors waned as years rolled on. 

The water was clear, and I dipped my hand in to feel its coolness. Rocky peaks rimmed it and great white boulders which fell from the peaks stood along the bank. So many noteworthy boulders along the trail—a spat of quartz embedded in one tugged at my gaze.

The trek back to camp was a different story. I didn’t get back til 6:30, saw upon my shoulder, all tuckered out. But filled with a sense of accomplishment for our crew’s work. As I sawed my diddly darnedest with the MS261 the rest of the crew lopped and handsawed and chopped the trail out to daylight it all the way up to the lake.

Yee

Aug 14

Hot day. Heat that smooths out the brain; my mind completely unwrinkled by the time i finished saw maintenance. All we had to do today was carve out 1/4 of a mile of tread leading up to camp. Tough going, as the hardy grass clumps’ stubborn roots resisted the whacks of our toolheads. But we accomplished what Michael would’ve wanted for the steep slope. The sun was blazing by noon, and we headed back to camp before 2. 

Then I gave the chainsaw one last wipe down and some final licks. And then I headed to the southern creek crossing to wash off. 

I was so groggy and drowsy by then. Made dinner with Henry, finished Diversity of Life and read some of his copy of The Sun Also Rises. After dinner I laid on the trampled ground by the fire and Lily and I droned on about the future, school and such—while I watched the swaying trees surrounding camp, whose crowns were touched by evening sun. Now the sun is gone and it is chilly, but it is not entirely dark. 

I am uncertain about some things. And concerned that once home I’ll be again consumed by that weariness and wariness, and that yearning to be elsewhere. 

But most I can do is intend to savor the present once I’m back in Kentucky.

Idaho Conservation Corps, Orange Crew, Summer ‘23 <3
:P